insomniac
Insomnia is a difficulty in falling asleep or in remaining asleep for an acceptable period. It’s a very common condition and is often caused by worry, tension, depression, pain or old age.
At the moment, I think I’m having some kind of sleeping disorder. It’s been going on for a few weeks now. I mean, I’ve been sleeping very late and woke up late too. Also, even if I decided to go to bed early (that’s when I needed to wake up early for clinics and theatres), I usually just managed to toss and turn in bed, woke up an hour later, realised that I haven’t even been sleeping, dozed off into some kind of weird dreams (yes Yat, like getting married to some unknown strangers :p), then woke up again couple of hours later. Then, tried my hardest to go back to sleep, then hey, Presto! my alarm went off, and it’s time to wake up. How depressing is that???
I’m the kind of person that value my sleep very (and I mean VERY) much. I’d rather starved than be sleep deprived. But now, my sleeping pattern is annoying me. I used to be able to sleep whenever, and where ever I want. Forget classes and lectures, I’ve stopped sleeping in lectures since I came to Uni, but that’s improvement on my side. I’m talking about sleeping in bed, under the warm duvet, and yet, here I am, at this ungodly hour in the morning, drinking nestum, trying to tire myself so I could eventually go to bed.
Maybe I worry too much, and I’m way to tense.. possibly depressed. Oh not too mention, I’m getting older (well, who doesn’t?). Everytime I close my eyes, I started to think about all that’s been happening during the day, and what I should do tomorrow.. and about all the work I should do. Honest to God, I think medicine is killing me. The more I know about the different medical conditions, the more I’m able to diagnose myself with some medical problems. I’ve got a few on my list now. You wanna hear? Oh dear, now I sounded like a freak.
I went to bed about half 12, woke up at one, read my OHCS (that reads OXFORD HANDBOOK OF CLINICAL SPECIALITIES) for half an hour. Called Mala for 10 mins. Went downstairs to make some nestum, and here I am. And it’s twenty to 3 already.
Ok, I don’t think I’m making much sense anymore. My eyelids are drooping. Better get into bed quick, before they change their minds. They seems to have mind of their own nowadays. Night everyone, let’s hope my eyelids stay close till morning.
Adios!
