is being small, a crime?
I’ve always been small. When I was in primary school, I was one of the people standing in front of the queue. When I was in boarding school, again, I was one of the people standing in front of the queue (except after they made me a prefect, I can choose to stand where ever I want). And after 23 years of life, I’m still one of those people that should stand in front of the queue. I don’t mind being small. Not that I can do anything about it anyway. I’m me, and I’m thankful I’ve got enough pancaindera. I’m not blind or deaf or handicap. And for that, I’m thankful.
It just annoys me when people see me, and make comments about how small I am, or how thin. I mean.. come on, I stopped growing up when I was fifteen.. I’ve always been less than 5 foot tall, and always weigh less than forty kilos. So, what do you expect to see? You don’t expect to see me being 6 foot tall and weigh 100kg after a few months, do you?
If you’re worried when you see me like this, imagine how I feel being me, and how I feel when people make that remark all the time. I mean, I often take such comments as a compliment, and my friends know that I couldn’t care less what people say. But, one can’t take too much compliments. At least, I can’t. You don’t know how much I eat, you don’t know how much I tried to gain some more weight. And for God’s sake, you don’t know how much I hate it when I couldn’t find the right pants or jeans, when I have to shop for months before I could find the right shoes, when I can’t buy the things I like because it’s too big for me. So, please stop complaining. I can whine for myself, thank you very much.
I don’t know.. when you see your friend getting fat, you don’t go and say it straight on their face, do you? I mean, how would you feel if I go to you and say ‘eh, xxxxx, gemuknya kau!!’. Maybe some of you do. I don’t. So if it’s not quite right to say how fat people is, what makes you think it’s right for you to comment on how thin people is. So, what? Thin people don’t have feelings? Or it’s alright because they’re not fat?
Urghh.. I just told you I don’t care what people say, didn’t I? Well, actually I do. I tend not too care, but I’m human. And because of that, I have feelings. My best friends don’t say anything, so why should you? My beloved sisters don’t say anything. OK, my boyfriend does it all the time, but that’s because he’s worried and he’s a guy, so, he doesn’t know better. Also, I know for a fact he’ll make sure I eat as much as I can (if he’s here, that is). And I know my mom will say something, but she hasn’t seen me for two years, and she worries all the time anyway. Maybe you’re worried about me, and maybe you do care and for that, I thank you. But, as I said, I’m capable of worrying for myself. And I can whine for myself. If I want to whine, I’ll let you know and you can whine for me too. And you can show me how much you care by cooking me some nice dinner or invite me for lunch. Commenting on it will only make me feel worse.
For now, my stomach is grumbling, so I’d better go and fix me a nice fatty brunch. I’ll write again when I want to whine about other things.
thehealthinspector: Urghh..I hate it when I feel all touchy-feely on one stupid comment. Sooo not me..
December 19th, 2005 at 7:57 pm
yes, i get that sort of ‘compliments’ too. but i always said, ‘well… i’m lucky because i don’t need to care how much and what i eat because i will never get fat!’ and that will just make other people feel bad about themselves. thus the bad feeling has been shifted. hehehe.
but yeah you see, people make such comments because they know they can’t be as thin as us. do you know models are like underweight as well? they can wear all those beautiful clothes. we are lucky because we can wear children’s/teenager’s stuff back in the uk! and the fact that people like us look younger.
what you think people will like you more if you are voluptous? what’s the point having bigger boobs, curvier figure if you don’t have a brain to begin wif?
beauty is all about accepting for who you are and not what you want to be.
in terms of physical of course.
December 20th, 2005 at 2:13 am
hehe.. i’m happy the way i am (although i do feel like putting on a bit more weight so i’m not too underweight- for health reasons, of course). and i don’t usually care what ppl said. it’s just one of those days, i suppose.
hmmm
December 24th, 2005 at 10:25 pm
oo hunny bunny sugar plumm…
i did everytime say u are skinny eh?ish2…bad bf laaa me nih..
ok2…no prob u eat n eat n eat banyak2 till yr weight is 45 ok…
nyam2 sikit
January 3rd, 2006 at 4:34 pm
being small ie.PETITE is cool!!
makcik security kt airport pon ingat aku under 16,meaning that kite ni awet muda =D
‘u know who’ pon asik suro aku mkn byk,takut sakit sb kurus.well, he has a good reason but i have the superpower ability to eat whatever i want without putting on weight wpon 0.5kg!
i love myself no matter what ppl said.
January 7th, 2006 at 1:27 pm
ieja.. i envy u.. u can eat & eat & eat all the glorious food (yg selalunye mmg ‘fatty’ pun) without having to worry wether it’ll stick on your bum or tum or anywhere stickable
susah woOo utk org yg suke / enjoy / love foOds tapi kena stop at certain point. kalau tidak.. have to buy a whole new wardrobe .. $kerchinggg$
bak kata Mek Aguilera…
“U’re beautiful no matter what they say
Words can’t bring u down
U’re beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can’t bring you down “