~WeLcoMe To My LIfE~

Books I read..

• Tuesdays with Morrie

Managed to finish reading the book while I was in Calderdale. Extremely brilliant!! I was crying from start till finish. Muahahaha (but that wasn’t the reason why it’s good). Sgt penuh dgn pengajaran, dan membuatkan Ija berfikir-fikir. Mungkin betul apa dia cakap.. bila kita nak mati, baru kita sedar betapa berharganya hidup, dan cuba memanfaatkan masa yang ada dengan orang-orang yang kita sayang. Kalau tak, kita sibuk sangat kejar material dan perkara-perkara dunia yang kita ingat akan buat kita happy, tapi sebenarnya tak pun. Won’t spoil it for those who haven’t read the book, but I certainly recommend it

• Confession of a Junior Doctor

Baru baca satu chapter. Macam menarik dan kelakar. Will tell you more after I finish reading.

• Anaesthetics textbooks

Err.. do I need to elaborate? You don’t really wanna know, do you??

Work I need to do

• SSC

Macam tade progress langsung. Akan berusaha menyiapkan salah satu case study by tomorrow. (maknanya malam ni laa kan..sekarang pon dah pukul 730pm) :p -huhuhu tapi sangat penat dan mengantuk.

• Anaesthetics Case Report

Got my patient today. It is not that interesting case. But, I think that’ll do. Can’t be bother to find any other case. Unless there’s one really really interesting case later this week, I’m going to stick to this one.

• Read up on things

Hohohoh, asyik kena grilled dlm theatre, terpaksa buat muka kiyut dan cakap tak tahu. W/pun, dah baca, tp apparently sekarang Ija mengalami short-term memory loss. Tak berjaya mengingat fakta2 yang di baca semalam atau 2-3 hari sebelum, dan asyik terkonpiuskan drugs yang ada. Huhuhuhu. Sangat frustrated. Especially kalau soklan yang ditanya adalah benda2 yang baru dibaca malam tadi. *sigh*. Any suggestion to increase my memory?? or rather.. my brain capacity? You’re more than welcome. Kalau berjaya, aku belanja. muahaha

‘Work’ I’m doing

• Updating my blog
• Surveys on friendster
• Checking my emails
• A bit of googling - for my study purpose

My reason to smile

Got my ‘raya’ parcel this morning. Ada kuih raya, milo and couple of tudungs. Oh dan baju kelawar juga. Tapi my dear brother tak letak my cili kering and ketupat segera

Also, mak sent me some money (which I didn’t ’specifically’ ask for). I’m grateful. Thanks for understanding, mak. You’re the best!!

Managed to get quite a lot of stuff signed off for my placement. So I won’t feel really guilty having to skip class for Eid. (Good sign - sejak bila Ija rasa guilty ponteng kelas sbb nak raya??? hmmmpphhh)

thehealthinspector: Ramadhan is ending soon. Cepatnya masa berlalu. Rasa macam tak improve jer dr tahun lepas

                                                            Bertakhta di Hati - Farahdhiya

Dihempas ombak terdampar buih

Menanti waktu pulang ke laut

Begitu rindu dipisah takdir

Menanti saat bersulam cinta

Lihat..lihat ke dalam mataku

Sinarnya menyala..

Lihat..lihat ke dalam mataku

Cintaku bertakhta

Sebelum kukenal dirimu siapa

Aku tak kenali..apa itu cinta

Setelah kukenal dirimu sebenar

Kau cinta sejati.. kusandarkan jiwa

Digilis angin tercarik awan

Menanti detik sebelum hujan

Begitu sendu diguris resah

Meniti hari bersulam tangis

Lihat..lihat ke dalam mataku

Sinarnya menyala..

Lihat..lihat ke dalam mataku

Cintaku bertakhta dihati

Takkan berganjak pendirianku ini

Selagi kita tak kembali bersatu selamanya

Takkan berubah perasaan ini terhadapmu

BIar digugat, biar dicabar, biar dihalang

Sebelum kukenal dirimu siapa

Aku tak kenali apa itu cinta

Setelah kukenal dirimu sebenar

Kau cinta sejati kusandarkan jiwa

Kau cinta sejati kusandarkan jiwa…

thehealthinspector: wishing you were here…

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Get yours –> here

thehealthinspector: true??

My last day in Calderdale. Can’t wait to go home this afternoon. (That is, if I’m still alive and have the energy to take the bus home). Tapi skrg mcm ngantuk..huhuhu. Camne na dok dlm theatre ni. Hopefully I can stay with one of the nicer Anaesthetist, so boleh mintak dia balik awal. Sangat2 penat dan ngantuk. Even my sleeping habit pun dah bertukar. Macam tdo dulu..then bangun mandi, smyg and tepon..pastu baru tdo balik, then bgn balik for sahur. More often than not.. I feel the urge not to wake up at all. Sigh. But it’s been a good week. Got most of my stuff signed off, had a good teaching on cannulation yesterday (even songlap some venflon nak prektis. Am going to songlap more this afternoon. Possibly with some lignocaine too, so, bleh prektis ngan farid without hurting each other ;p). So, Farid, nanti aku bagi ko cucuk vein aku, kalu ada locals laa tapi ;).

Called Dayah last nite, since dia baru dpt tepon baru, so, dia bawak tepon gi skolah. She texted me, cakap dia bosan. Jadi, sbg kakak yang baik *wink wink* saya pun, menghilangkanlah kebuhsanan adinda yang baru abis peksa tuh. Sangat seronok. W/pun macam baru jer borak hari tu.. tapi macam banyak je benda nak cakap.. family, school, in-laws, raya..etc etc.. Oh, and I told her last nite how she was so jealous of me when she was little. There was one time, when she was about 6, masa tu bulan puasa, so my parents bought us both new clothes lah. She got herself some jeans and t-shirt and some dresses as well, and I got myself a pair of jeans, which obviously a lot more expensive than hers. Like duh.. kata pun budak kecik. memula tu macam ok, but then she saw the price tag on my jeans. Went straight to my mom, and cakap ‘ye laaa.. kak ija tu anak kesayangan baba, dapat baju mahal2.. dayah ni bukan..’. Huhuhuhu.. rasa macam nak gelak aje.. tp kesian, so I kept quiet. I asked her last nite..and she was like.. ‘ye ke kak ija dayah cakap camtu??’.  Hahahah.. Penat gelak.  Pastu cakap babai like more then ten times before we finally hung up (itu pun sbb dia nak gi toilet - everytime call pun nak gi toilet, hampeh nye adik). Haii lah.. I so miss home. Tak sabarnya lah nak balik raya kat M’sia lagi

Called Mala too. Sooo good to hear her voice. Dah lama tak call dia. Hopefully, I’ll be able to call her more often after this. (Kata pun dapat byk free mins dgn tepon baru, kan?) heheh.. honestly, I don’t think I can survive here without phones. Kalau tak tepon orang kat M’sia, I’d ended-up calling Farid or Abg Zul. And since dah ada O2 ni, byk laa sket orang yang boleh di calling-calling, kan Yat kan?? ;p Muehehehe.

thehealthinspector: so glad they invented mobile phones

I’m in the Calderdale Hosp Learning and Development Centre. Trying to do research for my Literature Review SSC. The internet is a bit annoying though, since it keep prompt me to login everytime I open a new website. Oh well, at least they’ve got internet.
Got here about 915am. After I braved the heavy rain all the way from Leeds to Halifax. Arrived at the Hospital main Entrance with painful arms and drenched to the skin. (Ok maybe that was a bit exaggerated - tapi, struggle tu naik 3 bas nak sampai sini). Then, had a bit of induction, then went straight to theatre. It was fun, although there were some words that the anesthetist said, that I wasn’t very familiar of, and dia cakap macam slow jugak, jadi Ija ada masalah pendengaran :p

Then, about 1pm, fininshed the morning list - sorted out my accommodation. I was going on in circles. Everywhere looked so similar. I just got confused and lost. Lucky the hospital wasn’t that big. Then went back to theatre for the afternoon list. Giler mati gue kena grilled. Dah laa macam mamai2 aje. yang aku tau dia tak tanya.. yang aku tak tau tu jugak laa yang dia tanya. Oh, he’s Malaysian as well. But then about 330pm, he asked me to go and have coffe. As if I can eat anything lah kan. Said I can come back about 430pm if I want to. At first I wanted to stay, but then rasa macam nak buat SSC. So, here I am. doing my SSC (as if!).
It’s not bad actually, except my back is killing me.. Oh well, I gotta go. Tak solat Asr lagi. And rasa macam nak bli something jer dr kantin tu utk berbuka. till then.

‘You must eat the cold porridge’ he told me once. It’s a Chinese expression. I stopped what I was doing and stared at him. I thought - who did he share a flat with out there? Goldilock and the Three Bears??

The way he explained it, eating the cold porridge means working at something for so long that when you get home there’s nothing left to eat but cold porridge. That’s how you get good at something. That’s how you get good at anything. You eat the cold porridge. You work at it when others are playing, you work at it when others are watching television. you work at it when others are sleeping. To become a master of something, you must eat the cold porridge.

And I tried hard to understand. But I can’t help it. Somehow I got into my thick head that eating cold porridge means being in a time of suffering. Living through hard days, months and years because you have no choice.

That’s not what he meant at all. He meant giving up comfort and pleasure for a greater good. He meant deferring gratification for some distant goal. Eating the cold porridge now so you will have something better tomorrow. Or the day after tomorrow. Or the day after that. It has nothing to do with Goldilock and the Three Bears. 

                                                                One for my baby - Tony Parson

Thehealthinspector: Hence, my friend, from now on, I will eat the cold porridge.

Oklah..since Yat dah tagged me to do this thing kan, I might as well do it now lah. so, here goes… Seven Wonders

7 things you plan before you die:

1. Graduate and become a doctor - jadik consultant tp ta decide lg apa
2. take a good care of my parents till the day they die, or I die (whichever comes 1st) InsyaAllah
3. Get married and have a wonderful loving family (tiru Yat la ni :p)
4. Have a nice house, nice car, and enough money, but not too much
5. perform Haji + Umrah
6. travel around the world
7. and hopefully didn’t forget to do some good deeds along the way

7 things i could do:

1. research for my SSC
2. research for my anaesthetic case studies
3. clean my room + organise my notes from last placement
4. study
5. read more 
6. kurangkan berangan mcm mat jenin :p
7. not procrastinate

7 celebrity crushes: these are people that i like to see but i know no details of them whatsoever… don’t usually keep track… haha… maybe i forgot some… 

1. faizal hussein (zaman kanak2 dulu, masa dia tgh kacak lagi)
2. rosyam nor (sejak2 dia berenti merempit dgn faizal hussein and berlakon jadik hero)
3. m nasir
4. adam
5. aragorn (sbb viggo mortensen sebenar tak kacak macam aragorn)
6. takuya kimura yg busuk
7. ekin cheng

7 often repeated words:

1. macam
2. ler
3. why not?
4. duhh
5. oh ek?
6. sorry?
7. like

7 physical traits i look for in the opposite sex: (hohohoho.. mcm senang je na tukar calon yg ada mueskeskes :p)

1. rambut
2. tak kurus sgt, tp tak gemok jugak
3. no bulging bellies - ini kna stuju dgn yat
4. bergaya, tp takde laa sampai bergaya melampau mengalahkan pompuan - kira takde laa selekeh ;p
5. muka dengan pencahayaan agung  (ini ayat yat) - kira sedap mata memandang laa
6. mata cantik
7. tough - tp takde laa ketul2 mcm body builder tuh

7 tags go to: those who blogs… hehe

1. mala
2. ima
3. zalila
4. yatie kas
5. sareque
6. sesape laa.. malas pulak na pikir

thehealthinspector: ok, now, back to work!

thehealthinspector: need I say more?

Had a long chat with my parents and sister last night. I called them after they all woke up for sahur, and all of them needed the toilet. Apa sajalah. They kept passing on the phone to each other. Tah pa per. I’ve been mengadu-ing about my life to mak and ayah. Hahaha. Siann diorg, every time tepon jer, kena dengar anak dia sorang ni ngadu macam-macam. Never-ending whining. Oh well, at least I can get it out of my chest :D.

Mak is want to send me some kuih raya and tudungs. The other day, they passed my baju kurungs kat Jepa, but forgot the tudungs. And him also going to send me kuih raya + kad raya + besday card (oh my b’day is on eid - hopefully *hint hint* :p). Hurray!! Ija sangat suka!! Also I want to pesan bawang goreng, but totally forgot. I kinda made a mental note on what I want to pesan, so I kept telling mak, that I know something’s missing. I remembered it while I’m in the shower this morning. No better place to give you ideas, ey?? heheheh ;p

Dayah just finished her PMR last week. So she kinda started her school holiday already (although the actual holiday is in 3 weeks time lah kan). She said Maths susah. But I think she’ll be alright. I know she’s a lot more studious than me (and I mean like a LOT more, ok! - she’s like the 2nd ‘jaga’ of the school - ye lah, pukul 715am tu dikira lambat utk pegi sekolah yg 5 minit jer dari rumah.. just imagine - I didn’t get to school until 5 mins AFTER the bell rang.. so, see the difference??) Well, anyway, I pray the she’ll get what she wants, insyaAllah. Aminn. Asked her to make kuih raya for me.. and she asked me to go and asked my sister-in-laws instead. Adoila adindaku. I know, dapur is not her favourite place in the world. muehehe. Oh well, study hard my dear.. then you can go and study in Japan, so we can go holiday-ing in Japan Disneyworld one day. I sooo want to go there! (oh, hopefully by then, I’ll be earning enough money lah ;p)

Went to town with Farid and Fatemah. Finally bought my tickets to Basingstoke for Eid. It’s like so damn expensive lah kan. But, since I really really need the break, to hell with the price. *Maybe i could ask for extra subsidi from FAMA soon ;p*. I got the tickets now. Hehehe. Really can’t wait. Wish someone come wif me, though. It’ll be boring travelling alone. 4 hours pulak tuh. Macam forever lah kan baru nak sampai. Oh well, kalau kaya, bleh laa naik flight..tapi miskin, na buat cemaner :p

Me and Farid also made some puding roti.. di hiasi strawberry cream + chocolate flakes (ini gara-gara tengok Richard and Judy semalam - Jamie Oliver tu ajar camner nak buat chocolate flake, so kena lah try :D). Turned out not bad.. dah lama tak buat puding roti, then didn’t remember where I put the recipe that I like, so main hentam ajelah. Sedap jer jadik (masuk bakul angkat sendrik) ngehehehe.

It’s been a good day, after all. Watched the X-factor and Afterlife wif Farid. Now I’m going to bed. Well, after I have my dose of phone call. Till then.

thehealthinspector: I still got runny nose + this endless cough

I couldn’t sleep last nite. Not sure why. Prolly because of the cold, I can’t really breathe to begin with. But I managed to get some sleep.. woke up a few times throughout the night, but I did sleep, eventually.

And it’s full of dreams.. my dreams, featuring Mala - all night. Told ya I woke up a few times, but everytime I dozed off, I dream of her..different situation, different place..but Mala, none-the-less.

I don’t really remember all of it.. but there was this one scene, in her house (I don’t really know how your house looks like, darling, but I know it’s your house). she was having some kind of kenduri, but there was also some kind of dance thing going on downstairs. And there was this one reporter filming the dancing - and she was trying to make some kind of nasty article about the situation lah.

Also there’s one young couple dancing as well (the rest was like old men - not scandalous enough, i think ;p). I told her about the reporter, and she was like.. ‘kenapa tak cakap, reporter tu ada?’. Then she went on about how her dad will have a bad reputation and so on (tak ingat lah apa lagi yang ko bebelkan - I was a bit scared too since I thought my face was on the camera).  I told her ‘ Aku rasa diorang dah kawen lah, so ko tak yah lah risau sangat’. She was like so lega, and she went on and asked the couple - turned out they’re not married, they’re just friends… then I woke up.. (lucky me - kalau tak, sure dia sambung membebel at me :p)

Also there was this one part when she asked me to spend the weekend with her.. (looks like we were still in KMYS or something).. And of course lah I agree, kan? - I mean I’d go anywhere to get out of Airedale. I thought, oh if I can’t spend the weekend with my cousins in Basingstoke, might as well go to Mala’s and spend the weekend wif her! We can go ronggeng, and I can have nice iftaris at her place.. then, only I realised she’s in KL and I’m stuck here in  Leeds (in Airedale to be exact). what a good substitute lah kan - basinstoke and KL. huh! I woke up feeling sooooooo frustrated.. huhuhuhu.. I feel like going home there and then. *sigh* How I wish she’s still in Luton, and I can go and spend another weekend with her.

Seriously man, I think I need to get out of this boring life, and soon!! Before I lose my sanity. Oh dear.. I so wanna go home!!

thehealthinspector: now you know how much I miss you, ey, my dear makcikkafebising