~WeLcoMe To My LIfE~

dah lama tak menulis.. tengah tunggu abg zul+kak oja + mak ngah n pak ngah dtg melawat. Td diorg call, cakap dah sampai leicester. tak tau laa pukul berapa nak sampai. probably tgh hari.. nak masak, tapinye tak tahu nak masak apa.. uhuhuhu. memula cadang nak buat ikan masak kicap je, tapi kicap pulak abis.. iskk.. dah laa memang tak reti masak ikan. uhuhuhuhu. kalau ayam tu, boleh tahan lagi la.. tapi mak ngah tak makan ayam.

mala balik malaysia hari ni. she texted me this morning, saying goodbye. there goes me dearest friend. I just hope that the time and distance won’t drift us apart. I have many good friends, but she’s one of the best . Babe, best wishes to you.

And he’s also leaving. soon. *sigh*

As for myself,I still need to sort out some stuff.

Well, lets face the challenge one at a time shall we? As for now, I’d better go downstairs, and cook something. heheh..

thehealthinspector: Yesterday’s the past, tomorrow’s the future..why fret about them if today be sweet?

I came across this puzzle while I was browsing through the books in WHSmith last Friday. I was waiting for my train, dan memandangkan Ija memang suka melepak kat kedai buku, (lagipun takde kedai lain kat train station tu slain body shop n WHsmith), so I went into the shop, looking for any new book. (bukan nak beli pun, just suka tengok buku banyak2, then i’ll try to find it at amazon, tak pun kat market, kalau rasa nak beli sgt :p). I do enjoy doing puzzles, so I went to the rack yang letak all those puzzle books. Nampak satu buku tu, Sudoku ( jumpa word ni first time masa buat mind-teaser dalam Metro few weeks back), jadinya saya pun membelek2 lah.

Memula cam tak paham, tp ada one book from Daily Telegraph yang explained the puzzle in a very good way. Pastu bila baca review, tgk mcm ramai je orang addicted. Jadinya Ija pun berkira-kiralah nak beli. Malangnya harga buku kecik tu macam £5.99, rasa tak worth it laa plak (lagipun skrg tgh broke abis dah ni). besides, tak tau whether I’ll like it or not lah kan. So I decided not to by the book, but will try to find the puzzle kat internet.

And last nite, memandangkan I don’t have to go to Bradford today, and me being my usual lazy self, takde mood nak buat reflective log for my SSC, I started to surf for Sudoku. Found a few sites, tapi takde yang boleh buat online, and I don’t have a printer, so I copied the puzzle grid. Hahaha struggle giler nak try menda alah ni. I tried my 1st puzzle, and finished it in like what, 3 hours!!??! Cakap tepon pun, sambil buat puzzle. Sian my pokcik tuh :p. membuang masa betul. Dan daripada bangun tidur pagi tadi, I’ve solved another 2 puzzles, in between my reflective log yang progress nya tahap siput semput kna asthma. Huhuhu, esok ada meeting ngan tutor, but I still have another week to finish it off. Maybe try abiskan my log for 2nd and 3rd week, then tunjuk kat dia esok. Malas btul laa nak merapu-meraban nih. iskkk.

Anyways, if any of you guys wanna try Sudoku –>sudoku-daily telegraph and this is the online sudoku speed challenge. boleh lah menghabiskan masa anda di waktu2 cuti summer nih. hehhh

Now, I better go and do my work lah. Abg Zul is graduating tomorrow, and my mak ngah and pak ngah came to see the graduation. Mungkin akan datang melawat Ija di sini for the weekend, so really need to do my work lah. Nisa plak cakap nak dtg tadi, tapi tak tau laa dia jadik datang ke tak.. apa nak masak dinner malam ni ek??? dah laa peti ais macam kosong giler. heheh. Let’s just hope Ija tidak akan menghabiskan masa dgn another sudoku for today. ;p

I was on my way home when a man approached me. I didn’t see him coming but just heard him said ‘excuse me’, in front of the LGI. I was in a hurry, but he apologised for stopping me. Said it was embarrassing for him, but it’s just that I looked approachable. Then he explained that he had an interview at Leeds Metropolitan Uni, but somebody stole his car, and he just came out from the police station. The thing is, he doesn’t has money to pay for his train ticket. He got his mobile with him, but no money. typical story, I’ve met a few people like this before. So, I just told him that I don’t have any cash with me, which was of course a lie, since I just took out some money from the bank this morning. Usually, I didn’t really bothered, but somehow, I think, I saw the look in his eyes, and he seems hurt. I don’t know, maybe it’s just me. I walked home thinking, what if that happens to me. I mean, like last weekend, I went to sheffield, but I left my phone at home. The only number that I can remember was my own, so I tried calling myself, dgn harapan farid akan angkat talipon, eventhough I know the chance is almost zero. Tapi tak pe laa since I know sheffield quite well, so kira takde laa stranded kat train station ke apa. (since the one person that’s supposed to pick me up, didn’t turn up lah kan, huhhh :p)

The two situation mmg laa different, cumanya terbayangkan, macam mana kalau diri sendri kena rompak kat mana2 ntah, takde duit and tak tau tepon sape2 macam mana agaknya ye? Nauzubillah. and nak mintak orang lalu lalang? nak mintak pakcik polis hantakan? memanglaa kat sini tak patut percaya strangers pun, since I was tricked once, masa kat paris, with this chinese couple. And there are all sorts of bad people out there yang kerjanya memang nak menyusahkan orang lain. Tak kisah laa kat UK ni ke..atau kat mesia pon. mmg laa ada je orang jahat,kan.

It’s just that I’ve been thinking, macam mana if that person is really in need? Do you trust your instincts? or follow your brain? I suppose we’ll know laa kot kalau orang tu btul2 need our help. but then again, there’s still a chance that that person is lying, kan? tapi, kalau letak diri sendri kat situ, mesti rasa sgt2 hopeless dan marah kat sumer org yang tak nak tolong, btul tak? Come to think of it, that guy yg asked for my help could be lying sbb even if he lost his car, takkan dia tak bawak wallet masa dia pegi interview, kan? I mean, kalau dia ada hphone, mesti dia ada wallet, right? unless dia ada wallet tp takde duit. tp bleh pegi cash machine, kan? ke dia tak de kad bank?? tak logik laa pulak, ke?? tapi, macam btul je, since dia tak mention pun baper byk duit dia nak. he sort of explained that he doesn’t have money for the train, and look at me with that ‘u are not going to help me, do you?’ look, and left before I even finished talking. He didn’t try to convince me or anything. I just feel bad lah. *sigh*

thehealthinspector: help yourself before you help others. True.. or not??

happy besday untuk seorang anak kamben saya

thehealthinspector: "relationship, of all kinds are like sand held in your hands. held loosely, with an open hand, the sand will more likely to stay in your hand. the moment you close your hand, and squeeze tightly, the sand will trickle through your fingers..(ada lagi sambung, tapi tak ingat. but, u get my point )"

*greenday*

I walk a lonely road
the only one that I have ever known
don’t know where it goes
but it’s home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
on the boulevard of broken dreams
where the city sleeps
and I’m the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a…

My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
my shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone

I’m walking down the line
that divides me somewhere in my mind
on the border line
of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
what’s fucked up and everything’s alright
check my vital signs
to know I’m still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a….

my shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
my shallow heart’s the only one that’s beating
sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
’til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a…

I walk this empty street
on the boulevard of broken dreams
where the city sleeps
and I’m the only one and I walk a…

my shadow’s the only one that walks besides me
my shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
’til then I walk alone….

Allah knows what’s best for us
so why should we complain?
we always want the sunshine
but He knows there must be rain
we always want laughter
and the merriment of cheer
but our heart will lose their tenderness
if we never shed a tear

Allah tests us often
with suffering and with sorrow
He test us not to punish us
but to help us meet tomorrow
for growing trees is strengthened
if they withstand the storm
and the sharp cut of chisel
gives the marble grace and form

Allah test us often
and for every pain He gives
provided we are patient
Is followed by rich gain
So, whenever we feel that everything is going wrong
remember, It’s just Allah’s way
to make our spirits strong

May Allah clean our hearts and souls from impurities
and made us worthy recipient of this grace and benevolence
May Allah protect us from decline and favour us with infinite mercy.
Aminnn..

*found this in Dalila’s page, one of my favourite quotes back at school. I used to have a book full of quotes, but don’t where it is now. probably back at home, or maybe inside my bags somewhere. hehe ;)*

thehealthinspector: good luck for those who’re taking their exam. May the force be with you