~WeLcoMe To My LIfE~

Where should I start ey? I couldn’t sleep last nite, went to bed about half-eleven, then talk wif fauzi for about half an hour, and then tried to sleep. I closed my eyes, and my mind started to wonder, trying to remember the notes I read before, and then about my stupid, bongok housemate yang masih hutang aku £200++ for the past few months punya bil. and she left already, sad thing is; I don’t even have her number (rasa nak hantuk kepala kat dinding). Then finally, I dozed off. I had a weird dream last nite.
It’s me and farid, we have exam the next morning. It was in some kind of dormitory, Farid said she’s going for breakfast I think, then she’ll come back so that we can go to the exam hall together. She came in, but I wasn’t properly dress, so she had to wait outside. I couldn’t find my towel, and she was banging on the door since we were already a bit late. It was 9am. and I think I said to her, we’ll still be on time, even if we go out in 10 mins time. Then, on the way out ( suddenly its outside SEntinel, dunno why), we met Yat. She asked where’s our exam? It was some kind of hall, can’t remember the name. She said, she just met Kamarul and the exam hall is not this way, it’s behind the Tannery. What kind of dream lah that kan??? siap bleh mimpi salah tempat periksa.. adusss!!!
Pagi tadi, saya masuk lah dewan periksa dgn perasaan yang tak tahu nak ckp macam mana. Duduk, menjawab soalan dengan berhati-hati(kononnya lah). selak punya selak.. apalah jenis soalan ini??? thyroid lumps?? uhuhuhu ni yang mana satu yang mana ni?? … ALLAH!! apalah nama ini bacteria tak pernah kujumpa pon??? £$£$%£$^$%^£$!!! selak lagi..jawab yang lain dulu lah..
tiba -tiba, you have 10 minutes more, aduss.. byk lagi ni, rilek ija..rilek cool, sempat punya..
3 minutes more… makkkk naper tak perasan aku blum jawab section nih??? uhuhuhu.. maka keluar laa peluru2 machine gun yang tersimpan sejak tadi (memula pakai pistol jer)…uhuhuhuhu mommmmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.. lepas anta kertas periksa, kepalaku ingat satu ajer –> makkkk nak balik cuti summer!!! tolong laa bg balik cuti summer… uhuhuhuhu.. stresss.
Klua hall, cari toilet, tp toilet congested dgn orang2, so gi toilet kat parkinson’s steps. Pastu gi makan Charcos ngan Farid. Uhhh –> ulang ayat aku kat farid ‘ soklan macam taik, aku jawab mcm kena diarrhoea’. Farid  kata, mungkin macam tempat sewage tu kot soklan dia??? hampeh!!!! sehampeh hampehnya.(apa punya perbandingan pun tak tahulah- dedua macam orang tak betul jer)
then we went to town. Tak tahulaa kerana emosi yang tak stabil, dan mood yang menurun, maka tidak berjumpa sehelai baju atau seluar pun untuk dibeli. Jadi hanya membeli barang2 utk jadi souvenir ajelah.
Balik, surf internet.. hati terubat membaca entry baru dari hlovate yang buat aku rasa macam kena diabetic ketoacidosis. heheheh. Pastu tdo. Ada orang dtg tgk rumah, but I can’t be bothered lah. dah dgn sluar yang tak sampai kaki, malas laa nak bg org view bilik :p. Tdo sampai kul 8++pm. Bangun, kemas katil yang penuh dgn buku, (jadi skrg katil saya dah macam katil - bukan meja stadi lagi), tapi malas nak buat benda lain dah. Makan, sambil tgk Naruto the movie. Oh laaaa… Esok nak gi Jimmy’s, prektis clinical skills, since Farid nak return buku kat library Jimmy’s. hopefully tak ramai orang lah. uurrggghhhhhhhhhh..
Nak ayah. Nak mak. uhuhuhu

PERFECT - SIMPLE PLAN
Hey dad, look at me
think back and talk to me
did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
‘cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along

and now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I’m never be good enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alrite
And you can’t change

c/o cuz we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late and we can’t go back
I’m sorry I can’t be perfect

try not to think
about the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spend with me
now seem so far away
and it feels like you don’t care anymore

and now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never be good enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’s alright
c/o

Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
nothing’s gonnna make this right again
please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
just to talk to you
but you don’t understand
c/o 2x

ps: I’m glad this song is not applicable to me- but somehow,now I feel so not perfect, not that I’ve ever been lah.. but I just feel ntahh..uurrgghhh.

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